Jenny Duffy

New Website

2008-09-23T17:15:00.001-04:00

Josh and I have now combined our blogs into one website. We will now be at:

www.joshandjenny.weebly.com.

Mother Teresa, St.Francis, and the Wealth Doctrine

2008-09-22T10:05:00.004-04:00

We must not worry if we are not wealthy and do not have money to give to the poor. Paul and the apostles were not limited by finances. Jesus did not give the prostitute a new start, by handing her cash. He healed her heart with the supernatural love of God and a word from God Himself. He gave her the freedom to be loved and He gave her the opportunity to be made pure. She might have been making money all day by prostitution, but only Jesus could heal the brokenness inside of her.
Only Jesus could heal the crippled beggar who Peter and John met in Acts 3:6-8.

But Peter said, "I do not possess silver and gold, but what I do have I give to you:In the name of Jesus Christ the Nazarene--walk!"
And seizing him by the right hand, he raised him up; and immediately his feet and his ankles were strengthened.
With a leap he stood upright and began to walk; and he entered the temple with them, walking and leaping and pr aising God.

Although Peter and John had no money for this man, they did not pass him by without giving. We can give Jesus. It's so easy to take Jesus for granted and not even realize the weight and the transformation that can take place when someone meets Jesus. We can think we have Jesus for so long that we forget how wonderful he is to us. We can forget what it is like to be hurting and lost, just trying to make any sense of life. We who already have Jesus, need to experience and fall in love with Him so much more. We need to love Him so much, that we have to offer him to people. Money and food runs out but the joy, peace and intimacy that Jesus freely gives, will never run out.
I do think it is so important and absolutely necessary to meet the practical needs of people. I do not think we should preach to people but not give. I do however feel, that we should not feel limited by a lack of finances. Some say that we must have money in order to help the poor. I don't think Mother Teresa and St.Francis felt that way. They may have not had much money to offer, but they did offer themselves. They offered their lives to God, and weren't satisfied with keeping their ambitions, clean image and security. Hundreds of years later we are still talking about St.Francis and Mother Teresa is a household name and beatified saint.
I believe that God isn't looking into our wallets but into our hearts. We think we know what we want and then we meet the poor, the rich, the needy, and the broken. We begin doing things that we never wanted to do like serve others, and suddenly we realize the true longing of our hearts, which is Jesus, as we discover him in unlikely places. We think the desire of our hearts is for a better job, swimming pool or a bigger house. God reveals to us the true desires that are worthy for Him to delight in.
Money we may have not, but who we have to give is Jesus.

St.Dorothy: The Garden of God's Delights

2008-09-21T13:00:00.002-04:00

St.Dorothy, now the patron saint of 'brides, fruit and flowers' was a young virgin living in 304. She lived in Caesarea of Cappadocia, and it is believed that her parents were martyred.
The Governor Sapricius questioned her about Jesus and His whereabouts.
Dorothy replied "As Almighty He is everywhere, but for weak human reason we say that the Son of God has ascended into heaven, to be seated at the right hand of the Almighty Father. It is He who invites us to the garden of His delights, where at all times the trees are covered with fruits, the lilies are perpetually white, the roses ever in their freshness. If you believe me, you too will search for the true liberty, and will labor to earn entry into the garden of God’s delights.”
The governor placed Dorothy in custody with two women who had fallen away from faith, in hopes that they would pervert her. Dorothy listened to the stories of these women, rekindled the flame of God's love in their hearts and led them back to Christ. They joyously professed Jesus as their saviour to the governor and they were martyred in front of Dorothy, who encouraged them to die for their faith.
As she was placed on the rack to be executed, she is said to have been glowing with joy, explaining that she would soon be in paradise with the 2 souls who she has brought back to Christ.
On the road to her execution a lawyer called Theophilus, who had grown accustomed to persecuting the Christians, asked her, in mockery, to send him “apples or roses from the garden of her Spouse.” St.Dorothy smiled and prayed for this to happen and soon she was killed. Later in the day, a child showed up at Theophilus' door with three freshly picked apples and roses. The lawyer became a Christian and later died as a martyr as well.

Lost Vegas

2008-09-19T00:00:00.001-04:00

My and Josh's honeymoon has been fun and interesting as we've toured around the hotels on the extravagant Las Vegas boulevard. I cannot imagine how much money has been poured into this city with it's indoor animal exhibits, gondola rides, beautifully sculpted fountains, museums, and the list goes on as the 'entertainment capital of the world' seems to require more and more to satisfy its people. There is so much construction work taking place as new resorts are being built and hotels are being added onto.
Josh and I have been touring around the many hotels and eating at the free buffets which were given to us by Time Share presentations. Our favourite hotel has been 'Caesar's Palace' with it's amazing architecture and moving statues. It's difficult to describe the place and even photos (although Josh is a very talented photographer) don't seem to do its justice.
Aside from all of the sight-seeing and the great people we have met during our honeymoon, I love being with Josh constantly. I enjoy him so much and I am so excited to be married to such a passionate, dedicated man who loves Jesus with everything. Although, we can appreciate the beauty here, I am so glad that our whole lives aren't just about being entertained.
For our complete photo collection of Las Vegas feel free to flip through our pictures:http://www.flickr.com/photos/joshuajduffy/collections/72157607226344455/

The Homeless of Vegas

2008-09-18T02:30:00.011-04:00

Josh and I have also been spending time with the homeless of Vegas. On our way to the 'Hooters Hotel' we met Larry and Tawny, a married couple. We sat with them and heard their story. They told us that they their Bible had gotten stolen, and so it was such a blessing for us to be able to give them a New Testament which became instantly precious to Tawny.
We ran into Dwight yesterday, who was 'taking the day-off' sleeping in and not asking people for money. Dwight is the funniest homeless person, that I have met. The homeless situation here is unique to what I have seen in Canada, since it is always warm here and weather isn't a concern for the people on the street. Many of them also tell what sound like 'tall tales' about once owning major hotels and then losing everything. Although some stories are not believable and some of the people like Dwight are voluntarily homeless, they need Jesus badly like any other person. I don't think they should have to be justified in being poor in order to be ministered to.
On Sunday, Josh and I had attended First Presbyterian Church on Sunday and met Jan and Jack who are elders in the church. After the service,they invited us to their beautiful home which was decorated like the desert.
This evening Jan, picked Josh and I up and took us to a church where a ministry called 'Amazing Grace' was serving dinner to the homeless. We had the great opportunity to help serve and visit once again with Larry and Tawny.
Tomorrow is my and Josh's last day in Vegas.

Mr.and Mrs.Duffy in Las Vegas

2008-09-13T23:49:00.005-04:00

Heymans arrived into our honeymoon for a couple days and we went to the desert together. The Red Rock Canyon was gorgeous with its mountains, and of course Heymans climbed everything in sight while we snapped pictures. We got a taste of the night life by touring around the Caesar Palace hotel and MGM. We dropped Heymans off at the airport yesterday morning as he continues on his way to Bethel Supernatural School of Ministry in Redding, California.
My and Josh's honeymoon continues as we are now alone for the first time in Las Vegas. Last night we met some people who live on the street named Dwight, Susan, and Robert. We look forward to spending more time with them and their friends.
Today, Josh and I attended 2 presentations for vacation companies (Time Share and Vacation Network), with the incentive of free buffets and 2 free shows:V(acrobatic show) and Steve Wyrick (magician). Our morning at the Time Share presentation was enjoyable as our representative Randy showed us around a resort, and then we sat down with the manager who shared his testimony with us.
Tomorrow we plan on attending a church here in Vegas. A few churches have been suggested to us by Robert and our Time Share representative.
Las Vegas is a pretty crazy place. It can even be considered a present day 'Sodom and Gomorrah' with its sex shows, love for money pornography, and female escort services. 'Sin City' is a great place for the Holy Spirit to dwell. I believe that for some people here, the experience of Vegas will cease to be the highlight of their life, and that God will win their hearts. I feel that I cannot just be a tourist here but Josh and I do have a responsibility to our people here.
May love compell us to be bold.

Josh and I get Married

2008-09-11T05:00:00.000-04:00

I cannot describe how wonderful it feels to be married to Josh, and it still feels so surreal, as our wedding took place only yesterday. We flew into Las Vegas, Nevada at 1:30 and met with Josh's Holy Given friends Joy Waide and Paul Adams. Joy and Paul are two people who Josh speaks so highly of, and now that I have met them, I understand why.
It was a fun wedding day, as we prepared for our drive-thru wedding at the Little White Chapel. We were picked up in a white stretch limousine, which took the 4 of us to the courthouse. The procedure was very simple as we filled out information for our marriage licence. Many other couples were there for the same reason as us. Actually, a bride and groom walking around is a very common sight here in Vegas- marriage capital of the world.
Josh looked so handsome in his tuxedo and his vows to me during the ceremony were so heartfelt and Christ-centered.
Our ceremony was short and sweet, led by a minister, as we stood in the sun-roof of the limousine.
Following the ceremony, Joy, Paul, my new husband, and I had dinner at an Italian restaurant in our hotel, The Stratosphere. Josh and I stayed dressed up for dinner which was fun as people congratulated and called out to us.
Today, Josh Heymans arrived, joining in the merriment of our honeymoon. Although, Heymans' vision of Las Vegas has been crushed due to him being underage, he will hopefully enjoy the rest of his stay here.
I still can't believe that I am now 'Mrs.Duffy', but it is such an honour.
Please enjoy the video of our wedding!

Jessica and Colin Get Married!

2008-09-10T23:25:00.007-04:00

My dad and I made a special trip to La Ronge, Saskatchewan to attend Jessica and Colin's wedding on Sept 6. It was an outdoor wedding in Colin's parent's backyard and although it rained the ceremony still continued. The rest of the celebration took place in the Jackson household which held the aroma of countless homemade dishes cooked by Colin's grandma. It was a fun wedding that very much suited Colin and Jessica's simple but sentimental taste. It was quite the experience as my dad and I traveled what felt like a long journey back to Ontario all in the midst of Jessica getting married. May Colin and Jessica's marriage make such an impact on this broken world as they commit themselves together to serve Jesus endlessly.
Colin and Jessica are now getting ready to leave for Mozambique, Africa in October.

St.Catharines, you kept us busy!

2008-09-02T23:13:00.005-04:00

I will be leaving St.Catharines tomorrow with a smile on my face, because I feel that this visit was very valuable. Pastor George and Marilyn Woodward gave us a crash course on Premarital counseling from the work books 'How To Save Your Marriage Before it Starts'. The Woodwards even canceled a trip they were planning, just to be able to take their time and counsel us. These two wonderful people have already poured so much into Josh and I. It is very sweet to be able to include them in our very important decision of marriage.
I feel like I experienced a little bit of a 'family life' with Pastor George and Marilyn, as we ate a breakfast of omelettes together, went browsing for Ipods, and discussed Pastor George's first day of work as president today (of the 700 Club's Canadian office). It is sad to leave them, but our time with them has been greatly utilized and very much enjoyed.
Today, Josh and I had the special pleasure of visiting our congregation at Scott Manor, who eagerly welcomed us back. It didn't take long to get caught up on all of the Shenanigans of the 'Manorites' as we gathered together and discussed God's involvement in all of our summers. They happily told us about pastors who have been visiting them regularly and we were so relieved to find out that their spiritual care is being continued.
One of our dear brothers Eddie suffered a massive heart attack, and is currently in intensive care. Josh and I visited him today, and prayed for him. Please Pray for Eddie.
This evening, Chantel and I spent time together. I have met many kids this summer but Chantel remains so close to my heart, and I am grateful that she can be my 'little sister'. She is a young girl whose servanthood exceeds her age, and I believe God is going to use her to reveal His beauty to many.
We also celebrated Josh's 31st birthday on Sunday. We went to our favourite restaurant Sahla Thai and later that night we got our wedding bands tattooed.
After a busy few days, Josh and I are getting on a bus early tomorrow morning and heading to Windsor. I am looking forward to being with my dad and to also attend Jessica and Colin's wedding this Saturday!

Good-bye, Mama Deane!/Charity that has Gone Before Us

2008-08-29T11:28:00.006-04:00

St.Catharines awaits us as Josh and I prepare to depart from Mama Deane's 'house of peace'. We have retreated here for about 4 days, enjoying the company of Deane and getting a little taste of the south( last night she made corn bread!).
Her house is full of books and I dedicated all of my reading to the biography of missionaries called 'From Jerusalem to Irian Jaya' by Ruth A. Tucker. I have learned so much and feel so inspired after reading about C.T. Studd, Hudson Taylor, William Carey, Adoniram Judson, Amy Carmichael, Gladys Aylward, and more.
C.T. Studd was extremely intense and very controversial. Hudson Taylor's strategy is one that wouldn't be modeled today since he didn't church plant or raise up local leaders of China but focused on getting the message of the gospel out. Amy Carmichael was seen as not being evangelical enough as she rescued prostitutes from the temples and raised them. Gladys Aylward has trouble learning and felt that she wasn't even the one God originally chose for her work in China. William Carey married a woman who didn't want to do missionary work.
These men and women so badly wanted to be used by God, and that is what happened. They have set the groundwork for us today. These are only the missionaries whose names we know. Many have sacrificed, died and spent their lives saving souls, and are not remembered on this Earth, but I imagine that in Heaven we will hear their stories.
Within the hour, Josh and I will board a plane and travel back to Canada into St.Catharines. We will be staying with Pastor George and Marilyn Woodward, who are going to give us premarital counseling. Today marks ten days until Josh and I get married!

Hey, Jules! Look Who I Met!

2008-08-28T18:21:00.007-04:00

During Alumni Week I met Colleen who is a long-time friend and former camper of Julie Karanfilis'.

(Camper Colleen first posted this photo online)

Virginia is For Lovers

2008-08-26T22:28:00.008-04:00

"God doesn't want your thirty dollar offering. He wants everything you have."-Rolland Baker

After an Alumni week of caring for 17-21 year olds, as they returned to their roots at Double H Ranch, the camp came to an end on August 24. After the young adult campers departed, Josh and I also left Lake Luzerne and boarded a train to Virginia. I feel we have completely followed our hearts and have gone against logic (challenging the supernatural seems to be a trait of following one's heart) by deciding to visit Virginia.
We are staying at Mama Deane's beautiful home on the South East coast in York Town. Mama Deane is a wonderful lover of God who Josh met at Holy Given '05. She has obediently opened her home as a place of rest to the missionaries she met in Mozambique.
I am one who has trouble resting. I often feel sad if I don't feel that I am working hard and doing something worthwhile. I have trouble with the thought of taking a vacation because it just seems like a wasted period of time, basking in luxury and entertainment while people are suffering. That perspective can be good and bad.
I think that it is crucial to rest and to take time at the feet of Jesus. I think that at His feet we are changed and equipped to help those who are suffering. There is a danger of ministry becoming a distraction from Jesus. I feel that there is a great imploring from the Holy Spirit, for ministry to be the result of intimacy with Jesus.
I have come to Mama Deane's house of peace with my wonderful fiance and I have surrendered to rest at His feet.

Tonight, I watched a message from Rolland Baker that I believe puts the heart beat of Jesus into words.
http://fathersglory.com/media/Baker/051115-Roland_Baker-Dunamis_Now-River_of_Life-Phoenix-AZ.wvx

A Bite out of the Big Apple

2008-08-19T21:21:00.009-04:00

Josh and I kissed Double H goodbye for 2 days and took a bus to New York City. We met up with his friend Kylene (they met at the Holy Given Missions school this past summer). She was in the city attending a writing course and so it worked out perfectly for us to get together with her. It was awesome to finally meet Kylene and to run around the city with her. She was staying with a couple in their lavish apartment, and so Josh and I stayed there too. This apartment was more like a house and took up a whole floor. It was very extravagant and the owners Kara and John (who dig wells in Africa) were so kind to us.
We toured around the city and even made it up the Empire State Building. Although, I only looked at it from the ground, I did enjoy the F lat I ron Building and think it might be the cutest building that I will ever see. Central Park is beautiful though as I did look around on that Monday afternoon at all the people lazying around in the grass, walking dogs and playing flutes, I did wonder if they have jobs or go to school? Perhaps that is the mystery of Central Park.
Josh and I are now back at Double H, and currently trying to figure out how to cash our American pay cheques. Alumni week begins tomorrow which is about 4 days of hosting camp to young adults who are now too old to attend camp, but are back for some more fun. The campers this week are 19-21 years old so it will be very different. Please continue to pray for the impossible, as our time at camp comes to an end.

Sweet Home Alabama

2008-08-11T06:00:00.000-04:00

Josh, Jessica, and I

Jessica and I

Session 6: Spiders, Coa-coa puffs, and Goats

2008-08-10T18:56:00.007-04:00

High Ropes Course

Ten year old Kristen was a runner. A 'runner' is what we call kids who constantly dash away from the group. As Kristen constantly tested how much she could defy the counselors by storming in her room and slamming the door, and refusing to participate, she quickly became my favourite. Yes, all the little Deer need love and attention, but Kristen was the kind of young girl who needed to be held and told that God loves her and that she is beautiful and smart.
Instead of eating the food at meals, she wolfed down bowls of coa-coa puffs. Instead of responding to "please come here". She came meowing at the call of "here kitty, kitty."
All week Kristen did things that she didn't want to do (but secretly did) like ride a horse, go on rides at Great Escape, and we even walked the tight ropes together at the intimidating High Ropes Course.
As for an update from the barn, My and Josh's friend Jessica said 'goodbye' before she began her long drive back home to Alabama, with our littlest rabbit in tote.
Also, our newest addition to our animals are 4 Nubian goats, who the children will be able to pet and feed.
The best shenanigan at the barn this week is when the Raccoon Cabin (eleven,twelve year old boys) had to evacuate the gazebo because of a big grey spider dangling down from the ceiling.
Next week is our last regular session of camp, and following that we will host the camp to returning campers in 'Alumni Week'.

Session five and Still Alive

2008-08-03T15:08:00.000-04:00

After spending 2 busy days with the new campers of Session 5, I was quarantined to my bedroom for the rest of the week. I simply have a virus resulting in a sore throat, but the possibility of a child catching a virus is too great a risk considering that their health is already poor and their immune system is low. Most of my three days away from the children, has been spent drinking orange juice, sleeping, listening to Misty Edwards and teachings of Pastor George on my Ipod. It has also been a very convenient time to be by myself and to lay under the ministering of Holy Spirit.
It has been an interesting and at times difficult experience for Josh and I to be away from our Christian comforts. We are away from church and pastors and our Christian friends and living in a little community with humanitarians and no other Evangelical Christians. We spend our days playing with sick kids and our constant prayer is to carry His Presence.
I don't promote in any way, to live in a Christian bubble where we don't even touch unbelievers. I actually discourage such a lifestyle far from what I believe the heart of Jesus is. But I think there is a great importance in being fed spiritually and surrounding ourselves with people who love Jesus and live to serve Him.
I believe that this is a time where God has been teaching us about being content with where we are, His joy and His close fellowship. Shouldn't we be able to go anywhere and just take Jesus with us, being full of His joy in the most frustrating, discouraging situations?
It's like a guarantee in life that discouragement will come, offences will come and trials will come. We must allow the fruit of the spirit to overcompensate for those things. I long to live in such a way where I move by His beauty and grace and am willing to decide every day "Jesus, I am yours. I will go to a place full of Christians or I will go to a place where it is just me and You."
I pray for an increase in joy and such a delight in my saviour, that those around me will even just simply think "maybe there is a God and perhaps this God loves me."
I pray for long-suffering: pushing through and trusting God, that His purpose is bigger than I can understand.
Let's pray for a serious desire to give up our lives, give up our comforts and say 'yes'. I have so much to learn and experience in this area but it is plain to see that their is nothing in this life that is satisfying but, serving Jesus. There seems to be nothing left but to consider everything else worthless but Him, and surrender.
Let us be a carrier of His presence to the darkness around us.

Deer Cabin: the urgency for kindness

2008-07-26T18:24:00.006-04:00

It was never a dull moment as 9 little girls ran around the Deer Cabin all week. This week, we chose are theme to be 'Greek goddesses' complete with sheets cut into togas. Our special challenge was Olivia who is deaf and your typical hyper 8 year old. Using gestures and our broken sign language, my cabin team was able to communicate with her. I encouraged the other girls to treat her with kindness, even if it seemed unfair to them. Compassion, kindness and love are usually needed the most and are the most evident in unfair situations. I enjoyed the misadventures of the Deer Cabin from late night talks about prayer, a shower party, dancing around an olive tree, a spa night, and seeing 7 girls pile into a stand up, mesh princess castle, in the hallway of the cabin. My favourite moment of the week, was being at the bedside of 7 year old Natalie who cried hysterically over being homesick. This precious girl wasn't used to being away from her mom and was having a difficult time adjusting. Due to a rare disability, she has very limited use of her legs. Between sobs, Natalie told me she needed to go to the bathroom. As I picked her up and carried her to the washroom, her tears turned to hysterical laughter. Her sheets were tangled around her ankles and created a long train from her bed to the bathroom doorway. The laughter continued as I kept a firm grip on her and used one foot to pull the sheets off of her. Sometimes it's just the simple things. Although, I am enjoying the children, I do have to admit that I look forward to the end of camp. Josh and I look forward to pursuing what is next, but for now camp is in session and we pray to change perspectives of God and to be a light that shines in the darkness. There is nothing that is more important to us right now, than getting closer to God, falling hard in love with Jesus and continuing to run the race with joy.

Session 3: Let's go Lower

2008-07-17T15:24:00.006-04:00

Our summer continues at almost a non-stop pace, as the entire camp switches cabins for the rest of the summer. There are four more sessions to go, and I am now in the deer cabin which is the youngest girls (6-10yrs). Josh is now a mighty muskrat, taking care of the youngest boys. It'll be a different ball game for us both, as we go from being with the oldest of our gender to the youngest. It is now our break, and since Josh hasn't been feeling well, we both skipped the staff island party, and hung back at the camp ground, where we just booked our destination wedding to Vegas, online.
Session 3 was my favourite, so far. The girls were all so different, (personalities and medical needs) yet they bonded together and showed a lot of care and understanding. They enjoyed my Canadian accent and 'Canadian ways' and didn't call me by name but insisted on calling me 'charity'. Our favourite game to play together as a cabin was 'taboo' and I think this week, the bear cabin actually may not have been late for every activity ("I know we're going on the ropes course but I still need to look good!") My favourite and most memorable activity this week was the dance because theres something about dancing together that makes for a great bonding experience. Many of the kids who are in wheel chairs or have other physical disabilities, enjoy dressing up, and dancing in their own ways. 16 year old energetic Ashley, who wears leg braces because of Spina Bifida, threw on a purple and black sparkly mermaid-style gown and danced the night away, moving to the rhythm in an amazing way mostly using just her upper-body. The capability of the kids can be very surprising and impressive, especially in an environment of acceptance.
Half of the summer is gone, though memories of camp still dance in the minds of campers as they return home with tie-dye t-shirts, camp songs, photographs, and a longing to return to Double H. The oldest girls, the bear cabin, are not too old to cry, at the wish boat ceremony, which for some, ends their last summer at camp.
I feel a dissatisfaction as we say goodbye to the campers. Although, they were able to have a fun-filled week of new experiences, and doing things they couldn't normally do, I wish to offer them a joy and assurance that is lasting and doesn't depend on being at camp.
As camp continues, I feel that it is crucial for us to guard our joy. We can easily let our guards down and becomes stressed out by the atmosphere of who we work with,and being with them for almost 24/7. It is too easy to complain and let the little things irritate us. As long as we work with people, there are going to be plenty of opportunities to get annoyed, offended, and distracted. As we grow closer to God, depending on His mercy and His strength daily in our lives, everything becomes about kindness. We are not here to rise to the top, but to go lower.
We are at camp to do humble service for the children and those we work with. As we care for the most needy, we care for Jesus, and as we serve the ungrateful, we care for our people. I pray that God will use this summer to break our hearts for the people who need to know His love, the most.

2008-07-14T22:04:00.002-04:00

Josh and I can no longer display photos or videos of campers, due to privacy issues. Sorry, everyone!

A Popular Choice at Free Choice

2008-07-10T06:00:00.000-04:00

It was a blazing, hot day at the barn as children sat elbow-to-elbow in the two gazebos. The barn had become a hot-spot during this free choice period, and kids arrived at the barn asking to hold specific animals 'Can I hold Jeter?' 'Can I hold the bunny I held this morning, you know the one I named Georgia?' towels were being passed out and little animals were placed onto laps.
Children also spent time inside the barn, horsepainting, many leaving their mark on Silver the white horse.
I don't know what I would have done without my volunteers. There was Lynn and John, an older couple who used to breed rabbits and turkeys. Upon retirement, Lynn worked for the 'make a wish foundation'. And then there were Amanda and Vanessa, high school bestfriends who laughed while hosing down the rainbow splattered horse. During a winter program these 2 girls volunteered in the ski lodge, playing games and preparing food for skiiers.
Children who required special one-on-one attention from a councellor, planted themselves infront of the pig pen, refusing to do anything else but visit Harley and Petunia.
By the end of the rotation, collecting the guinea pigs and rabbits was a smooth process and kids crowded the sink, washing their hands for dinner. Being our last night, we later put on our camp-wide talent show and wishboat ceremony.
Even Josh and his beaver cabin made their debut at the barn. My secret fear had come true- 16 year old boys and bunnies. To my relief the boys were content to hold some animals and hang out. No one got hurt.

We're Getting Married!

2008-07-09T13:45:00.005-04:00

On July 2, Josh and I became engaged. He proposed to me in the Rafter's cabin, and since then we have been making plans for our wedding this fall. So far we are planning a destination wedding in Las Vegas, in between visiting our families in Canada.
To be honest, I am not in the glitz and expenses that sometimes come along with the traditional wedding. A wedding does not have to be expensive to be meaningful, memorable and fun.My twin sister Jessica and her fiance Colin are planning a Saskatchewan wedding with a lot of homemade touches and contributions from family, which I think is better than having the magazine wedding, that we often think we need.
Josh and I thinking of having a very low-key celebration, though our plans are still in process.
I really don't care so much about the wedding and all of the details. I am so excited to marry Josh. He is the most amazing and giving person who I know. He inspires me to no end with his dedication and service to Jesus. To imagine a life time of service alongside of Josh, as my husband, thrills me. I feel like I belong with him.

Deep calls to deep
in the roar of your waterfalls;
all your waves and breakers
have swept over me. Psalm 42:7

An Issue of the Heart

2008-07-09T12:56:00.006-04:00

This week my cabin had double the kids. Girls from Brooklyn, New Jersey and New York piled into the Bear Cabin. 8 out of 14 were at camp for the first time and some of them had some pretty intense needs.
One of my favourite campers was Mel who has Cerebral Palsy and is non-verbal. It was her first time at camp, and we made a journal so that her family could read about the activities she did this week which included rollercoasters, rafting and the giant swing -to name a few.
I think we were the loudest cabin in the dining hall when we had a 'cheer off' against the beavers (where Josh is a councellor). The week concluded with us venturing to the dining hall in the night, and putting the beaver's table on the roof. To the disappointment of the girls, the beavers didn't even show up for breakfast the following morning. The prank failed in the end but the girls did have a great time pulling it off.
One of our shy soft-spoken Canadian campers, Alanna surprised us all with her crazy performance of Miley Cyrus's hit song 'See you Again' in the talent show, complete with dance moves from her and background dancers. Before she left, the next morning, I told her to let me know when she's having a concert. I was so proud of her.
I was glad for the intense week of doing transfers and personal care, because that is what makes this camp so special, and personal care could actually be pretty fun (shower parties and bathroom parties!)
It all comes down to love. If we are playing with kids, pushing wheelchairs, doing lifts and serving, just for other's to see, then it is not love.
We must be willing to serve with all of our hearts when no one will see us or find out. We must not give to be recognized, because that is not a true giving of ourselves. To give of ourselves requires personal sacrifice, and not a climb to fame. True love does not just talk of compassion and sacrifice. True love is those things and is not real unless put to service.

Love cannot remain by itself -- it has no meaning.
Love has to be put into action, and that action is service.-Mother Teresa

Camp Cuddly

2008-07-02T09:24:00.012-04:00

I spend my days here at 'Double H Ranch', in the Happy Barn; home to 20 rabbits, 7 guinea pigs, 2 pot-bellied pigs, 2 cats and 12 horses. I am the 'small animal assistant', so my job is to care for the rabbits, guinea pigs and pot-bellied pigs, and to manage the petting and holding of these animals during our barn program.
We take the kids horse-back riding through a trail in the woods, and then they return to the barn, where they sit in the gazebo and pet small animals.
The lion-head ba by bunnies were a huge hit, and the boys loved having 'lettuce-eating contests' with the guinea pigs. One boy showed up to the barn wearing a cow boy hat, and he absolutely fell in love with Johnny the horse. He spent an hour, grooming Johnny and then returned during free choice to visit Johnny once again.
On rainy days, we go into the indoor arena and play games on horses like: ring toss, red light-green light, and a spoon and ball game. The kids also enjoy spying on the baby foxes, nested in the pasture.
For kids who weren't able to ride a horse, I gave them a special tour of where the rabbits and guinea pigs live, and they helped me feed the animals.
The kids love the animals, and the animals love the kids. Some of our rabbits and guinea pigs have been at the ranch for a while, and they seem to know why they are here.
Rabbits who are frisky in the their cage, turn into stuffed animals once given to children. Guinea pigs continue to stuff their faces with lettuce, to the joy of laughing boys from the Bronx.
I am so glad to be serving in the Happy Barn.

Black Bears:Session 1

2008-07-02T08:26:00.009-04:00

"And when you're not with us, we're blue, so blue, oh Stephanie we love you!" This song drifted through the campground on a Tuesday morning, as councellors sang their farewells to campers. The kids went home happy and tired, after 6 adventerous days in which they challenged themselves, climbed to new heights, made new friends, and just plain-had fun.

The Bear cabin had 7 campers this week (15-16yr old girls) including 2 French girls from Montreal, 2 girls from Ohio, and the rest from inner state.
I think the camper who fascinated me the most was 15 year old Bianca, who functioned at cognitive level of a 6 year old, and never tired of the game 'I got your nose.' She would throw her victim's nose across the room, into water rides at 'Great Escape', sometimes she would eat them, or switch your nose with someone elses. We tried to rescue our noses only for her to 'hypnotise us' with her mantra 'go to sleep, go to sleep'. Yes, it was an ongoing saga all week and with the busyness of camp, we dropped the ball when it came to guarding our noses.I'm sure that at the end of camp, Bianca took some of her councellor's noses home with her.

Most of our campers had Sickle-Cell Anaemia, which is a blood disorder, in which the red blood cells turn into abnormal shapes causing them to not flow freely through veins, causing pain.
It's easy to forget that the campers are even sick as we spent the day at 'Six Flags:Great Escape' riding rollercoasters, we went white water rafting, spent a lot of time in the pool, went on high ropes, performed in the talent show, showed off our moves at the dance, camped indoors and more. It was all pretty sweet. There is great opportunity here to just pour out love on a bunch of kids who need it so much.

Tomorrow a new group of kids come and this group will be a lot bigger than the last!
Please take a look at Josh's blog to get the inside of what went on in the Beaver cabin this week, and check out our photos -HERE-, highlighting the week.

The Sleeves Say it All

2008-06-25T09:36:00.016-04:00

Team '08 is here and we have the t-shirts to prove it.
Tomorrow is the first day of Camp!

We need to raise our standard of giving, not our standard of living- Rick Joyner

A New Feeling

2008-06-24T15:39:00.003-04:00

Colin rides the high ropes 'Giant Swing'. This swing was invented at this camp by our behaviour specialist Chris Pezzulo, who invented this ride especially for children with very limited mobility.

Saira Can Colour-Can You?

2008-06-24T08:13:00.004-04:00

You have got to see this! In the Arts and Craft Centre, Saira uses an artstick held in her mouth, to accomplish some creative projects!

Colin Plays Pool

2008-06-24T08:12:00.004-04:00

Josh taped one of the councellors Becky, helping Colin play pool in our 'game room'.

The Kids are Coming!

2008-06-24T07:36:00.005-04:00

In 2 days the kids will be arriving! Yesterday, marked our last day of training and after our 2 day break, session 1 of camp begins. This week the rest of the staff arrived which included 50-60 councellors from all around the states. We jumped into a long week of training and team-building, leaving us eager for the kids to arrive. I am in the 'Bear Cabin', which is the cabin for 15-16 year old girls (the oldest girls at camp). I am promised that these girls will come with drama and attitude, as they deal with all the fun that comes from being a teenager, and living in close quarters with other girls from different cultures (think Bronx vs. New Jersey). But with all this, comes meaningful conversations, and a great experience with what people call 'the best Cabin'(besides the Beavers which is the oldest boys,where Josh is a councellor).
A few days ago, we all went to Six Flags: Great Escape, where we did a scavenger hunt and of course tried out some of our kid's favourite rides. Every week, we will be taking the kids to this amusement park, and the fun pursues as we lift kids onto rides and make it happen!
I am so grateful to God that Josh and I are here. This is truly a privelege and a beautiful opportunity to fall more in love with Jesus as we care for these precious children, and work in love and dedication alongside our team '08.

Happy Times in the Happy Barn

2008-06-19T07:44:00.003-04:00

This is my first experience in the 'Happy Barn'. Here I recite all of my knowledge about bunnies.

Precious

2008-06-16T19:21:00.005-04:00

Colin's older brother Casey goes for a ride on the 'big swing'

My Friend Jessica, with Colin who is waiting to go on 'the big swing'.

Saira feeling Jeeter, the velveteen rabbit.

Camp Inspiration

2008-06-16T10:49:00.005-04:00

We just finished a week of 'Camp Inspiration' in which we put on camp for children on ventilators (to read about how ventilators work->click here<-), and their family. These kids would be much too fragile to end the normal camp sessions and so 'camp inspiration' is the perfect opportunity for them to spend a week at 'Double H Ranch' and enjoy all of the experiences of camp, while receiving a lot of care and attention for their special needs. To make this week safe and fun, a massive team of doctors, nurses and respiratory therapists came on site. There were about ten campers in total, and each camper was accompanied by a nurse, respiratory therapist, and enthusiastic councellors, to each activity they went to. It was truly amazing. Only a few of these kids were able to communicate with words. The others communicated by sounds, twitching their mouths a certain way, sign language and blinking their eyes. An 11 year old child named Casey had a 'dyno-box' in which he would select words on a screen with a little thumb curser. 17 year old Saira who had no use of her arms or legs would blow and suck into a straw inorder to steer her wheel chair. She was very articulate with a drawing stick which she could use to type, paint nails, write and colour. Adventure and excitement filled the air as campers went on carriage rides, were loaded into a giant swing, visited the rabbits and guinea pigs at the barn, swam in the pool, played sports, made science experiments, created art, dressed up for a fashion show and to top it off..performed in the talent show. The campers without a doubt, had the experience of a life time. Two of the campers had come from an institution and so you can just imagine their excitement to be with other kids at camp. Parents had a wonderful time as they were treated to fancy dinners and joined in all of the camp events. It was amazing to see how much work was put into kids being able to swim in a pool, get on a carriage, and a giant swing (which was invented by behaviour specialist named Pezz, and is in the 'high ropes' station). The medical staff would so whatever it took and they always kept the atmosphere very light and humerous. 'Camp Inspiration' gave me a good warm up when it came to hosting a petting zoo for the kids. Me and my beloved 'barn girls' were fetching guinea pigs and left and right. A lot of the animals are very calm and they seem to know their job, as they just lay on kids laps and let campers pet them. I was assigned to be with the siblings of Anthony (who breathes using a ventilator). His siblings weren't on ventilators, though 17 year old Cassandra is immobile as a result of Spina Bifida ( a birth defect in which the spine doesn't completely form inside the body) and 24 year old Jessica is developmentally delayed along with their 45 year old Uncle Gus who is also mentally delayed. Anthony is actually the only biological child of parents Sue and Tony who adopted Cassandra and Jessica, and also take care of Gus- amazing people!!!! it is a debate on who had more fun-the parents or the kids. It was a sweet week and it was hard to see the families go. Tomorrow 50-60 councellors will arrive and we will proceed with our 'all staff training'.
To view more photos, visit our flickr album HERE

Be Inspired...GO INSPIRE!

2008-06-10T13:41:00.004-04:00

It has only been three days at 'Double H Ranch' and already I'm glad that Josh and I decided to come to camp. We are living on a gorgeous campground in Lake Luzerne full of trees, paths, wildlife and of course their is a big lake and in 2 weeks chronically and terminally ill children will be enjoying all of these things even more than I am. I am living in a log cabin with my awesome room mate Brianna who is Maine, and was hired as the camp photographer. Fun nights have been spent laying in our beds talking about beliefs, school, camp and future plans. We are surrounded by people who long to help others and seek adventure. Some of our friends are working at camp, as a 'last hurrah' before finishing school and having to find a career to secure their lives. Some of the cabin unit leaders are actually former campers who now work at the camp and want to 'give back' to the place that has brought so much magic and happiness to their lives.
I have began my work in the barn with the small animals. There are 2 pigs, 2 long-haired black cats, 5 guinea pigs, more than a dozen rabbits, 12 horses, and 1 miniature donkey. Three other girls are in charge of the horses which include cleaning stalls, feeding, grooming and leading them down the trails when the kids come horseback riding. The small animals consist of the rodents and the pigs. My job is to care for these animals as well as supervise a petting zoo for the kids.
Its is an extremely good lesson to be able to relate to people outside of our 'Christian bubble' where the conversation is not debating what Jesus really meant when he said 'go into all the world and preach the gospel, or debates about theology and purity in relationships, and of course the famous ice breaker 'did you grow up in a Christian family?' These are university students who are just trying to live life the best they can, be good people, finish school, get a decent career and try to find happiness in the midst of the world's miseries.I find myself a part of something amazing. as we undergo training and spend time together in the dining hall and at campfires. The sick children who come to camp are the heartbeat of this camp. Kids who have been bound to the hospital and can't join in on the fun activities that we often take for granted, spend six days at 'Double H' where they hike, horseback ride, swim, camp,make science experiments, jump from the highropes, go on rollercoasters and have the freedom to just be kids despite physical and mental limitations. I am convinced that we as the staff, will walk away from Lake Luzerne, even more changed than the kids. At this camp, I really hope through my actions to prove that God exists and is so loving

Love the Kids

2008-06-05T20:13:00.007-04:00

This morning was spent at a daycare run by Josh's cousins Charmayne. Before Christmas, Josh spent time with the kids at the daycare, showing them pictures of Africa and handing out necklaces made by the Mozambique children. Charmayne was telling us how the kids still today, talk about Josh and the poor kids in Africa, and were excited about seeing 'Josh the missionary' again.
We used a world map to show the kids where they live and then Mozambique, Upstate New York and Cambodia. Finally, we showed them the '10-40 window', where there aren't any churches, to say the least. After our talk with the children, they went to their art table and created drawing for Josh and I to take to children over seas. How sweet!
After we left the daycare, we had the pleasure of visiting 92 year old Claira, who is a home-care patient of Josh's Aunt Lynette. Claira is a deep-thinking Christian woman who encouraged us to take great care of ourselves so that we can continue to serve others. I agreed with her fully when she said, "Christianity without action, isn't Christianity. It is just 'church-ianity'." "Education without Christianity is useless". Let's get this woman speaking at the Bible schools!
The remainder of the day was spent walking along the beach of Panmure Island, visiting Josh's grandmother in the hospital, and trying my first lobster.
Tomorrow morning, Josh and I fly to Upstate New York where we expect to be very busy at 'Double H Ranch.' Our main focus is to just love the kids like crazy!

I Meet a Lobster

I Eat the Lobster Whom I have Met
I am playing with a big slug like bug that washed up on the shore of the beach in Panmure Island.

PEI: Cavendish Beach and Victoria Park

2008-06-04T07:54:00.006-04:00

Look at more pictures:http://www.flickr.com/photos/joshuajduffy/

Hitting the Streets

2008-06-03T22:25:00.006-04:00

On Sunday, Josh and I were given the opportunity to do the church service at the Harvest House Drop in center. There were about 15 people, and following the service we offered to take them out on the streets evangelizing. It was the first church service I had been to where, there was an opportunity instantly to apply what had been taught. Josh and I both preached, spent time with the people afterward talking and answering questions and then took 3 people out evangelizing.
A married couple Jason and Marion, came with their baby, and a middle aged man named Roy. Marion and I teamed up together and I was so impressed with her. She had never approached anyone to talk about Jesus, and she was very nervous. She went up to a small group of teenagers and talked to them about God, and we gave them a Bible. Afterward, Marion was just beaming with excitement and marveling at how it wasn't so scary after all. Roy needed no prompting and would approach anyone.
A lady from the congregation gave Josh her phone number, saying that she was interested in going evangelizing but wasn't able to that day. We arranged to meet with her and her room mate at the Harvest House the following day, so that we could take her out on the streets.
What a surprise when the next day we pulled up to the Harvest House and there were 10 people waiting for us. Only 5 of them had actually been at the service on Sunday and the other half, all heard by word of mouth. They were there to go out on the streets with us, and some even had their own material.
Now, these are people who have a lot of issues, health problems and chemical imbalances. They were scared and not prompted to go with us for the need of earning credits, and some of them hadn't even heard the message Josh and I preached. How is that we couldn't even get 10 Bible school students to evangelize in the span of 2 years: students attending the school of a world-wide evangelist, wanting to be in the ministry, needing to earn credits and setting aside a period of their life to pursue God's call? Why didn't they care about the lost?
We hit the street in 3 teams led by Roy, Josh and myself. It was a pleasure for me to help push 3 women out of their comfort zones as we talked with strangers about Jesus and handed out Bibles.
Roy's team gave a New Testament to a Muslim man who later greeted us and happily thanked us for giving him a Bible. Josh and I encouraged the people of Harvest House to continue evangelizing. They will surely experience so much satisfaction and spiritual growth. Josh and I are no better than them when it comes to talking about Jesus, right now we just have a little more experience. But we too at one time, nervously approached that first time and with experience it becomes easier and addictive.
We would love for when we return in the fall, to join a team that has continued to evangelize. We encouraged Roy to take on a role of evangelism leader since he is so bold and passionate about it.
It was an amazing day and I pray for lasting fruit. I thought so much of my experiences evangelizing and ministering along side with Heymans, Jessica and Colin, who all remain so changed and passionate for the Jesus.
My and Josh's stay on the Island is soon coming to an end and we are onto our next adventure at 'Double H Ranch', the camp for terminally ill children. We pray for miracles.

Harvest House preach: 'What God Wants' Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Potato Land

2008-06-02T07:28:00.005-04:00

Hello, from the Island!
I have been meeting with a lot of Josh's family along with friends from his church. On Saturday, Josh's mom Teresa hosted a pot-luck at her house where I met cousins, 'double-first'cousins, aunts and little nephews and nieces. When it came to eat, I noticed that nearly all of the dishes were a potato dish. I guess, that PEI for ya!
Yesterday Josh and I were given the opportunity to lead a service at the Harvest House drop-in center, where 15 people attended. Following the service we offered to take a group out evangelizing on the streets and three people went. It was awesome to see fellow-Christians get out of their comfort zone and experience the satisfaction of telling people about Jesus.
Our days have been packed with visits as we cruise from town to town in a LeBaron. I went to my first drive-in movie and saw 'Indiana Jones' and we actually had the top down for most of the movie.
Josh and I have also driven to Cavendish where we visit the Green Gables home and walked along the big beach. We even climbed one of the 'sand dunes'. Today we have more visits.

Me climbing a sand dune

Jenny of Green Gables

2008-05-28T21:16:00.009-04:00

I am enjoying Prince Edward Island, right from the red soil, the interesting accents, and sea food hype. This truly is the 'land of Anne' as the popular novel series celebrates its 100th anniversary this year. It is great to meet Josh's family and see where he grew up including his favourite childhood spot: Murray River. It is becoming more of a reality that I don't have a set place to live anymore and that my belongings consist of what's in my suitcase. I feel free and full of adventure as we pray about our plans for the fall. People have been asking us constantly about what we will be doing,and right now we have many options. I am glad though that people know that we are going to do something. They do not expect us just to settle down anywhere nearby. Today Josh and I went to 'Harvest House' which is a church and drop-in centre, run by Noel Mal. Our meeting with Noel was so encouraging, and he wants us to speak at his centre. We are also going to announce a day for evangelism, and see who we can bring out on the streets. I am most excited for this, because evangelism is very addicting, and I would love for believers to discover the passion and satisfaction of soul-winning. We are also visiting family and I am meeting some very friendly people every day. Tomorrow is another day full of God's love; 'visitation/impartation campaigne' continues. Come on , Holy Ghost!

Let's Put the Top Down!

2008-05-28T21:00:00.000-04:00

Josh and I cruise around the Island in a LeBaron.

Toronto Time

2008-05-26T10:17:00.007-04:00

It feels good to be productive again! Josh and I arrived in Toronto last night, after a rainy car ride with our buddy Heymans. We are staying with our friends Shawn, Hayley and their 3 small children in an area that is home to many immigrants.
Thorncliffe Public School is the largest elementary school in North America and 93% of the children speak English as a second language. Josh and I are visiting with the Cuthills for four days just to help them in any way they need.
Here in Thorncliffe, I am seeing a different side of Canada. I feel like part of a minority when I look around at the women in Burkas. I've borrowed tunics from Hayley's friends so that I would look more modest and fit in better. In the Eastern culture, the bottom of women are considered to be the most provocative and so long shirts, are wonderful to have.
We put on a 'road side thrift store' with donated clothes, free Sunday school crosswords for the kids and free Bibles, calenders and literature. It was a big hit, especially since it is set up right outside the school. Afterwards, we went out to eat at an Afghan restaurant which served an amazing flat bread.
Hillary (one of the two girls I stayed with) hosted a 'house warming party' and her middle-eastern neighbors arrived, bringing with them exotic dishes from their home countries.
Last night, Josh and I sent the busy Shawn and Hayley out for a date while we babysat the kids: six and four year old boys and a two year old girls. After hide and seek and jumping contests we tried our best to make the kids go to bed. As we overheard them playing together, we shrugged and decided to be happy that at least they were staying in their bedroom.
Today, Josh and I get on an airplane at 3:00pm and fly to Prince Edward Island, where we will visit Josh's family, friends and church.

The Church

2008-05-24T13:51:00.004-04:00

We managed to gather almost everyone at Scott Manor for a group photo. It was funny and difficult but we were determined. This photograph is important to us because we always want to remember the forgotten people at Scott Manor who have become like family to us. Instead of trying to drag them to church, we came and brought church to them, as each of us and the residents at Scott Manor are the church.
It was a privilege and great experience to be able to do pastoral care with Heymans, Colin and Jessica and we hope that more Christians will become passionate and motivated about bringing church to their streets and community.

Orange and Pink- goodbye, Chantel

2008-05-20T20:19:00.004-04:00

Chantel and I kicked off our months of 'sisterhood', by getting pedicures. I have never gotten my nails done so it was a very new experience for me. Chantel happily informed me about the massage chairs and water jet tubs that awaited us at 'Famous Nails'. Months ago, she had gotten a pedicure with her mom and she really wanted the two of us to get one together. The last activities we did together were 'taco feasting' and pizza making, so something 'girly' sounded perfect.
In the spirit of summer, she picked out a neon pink (think the 'Barbie aisle' at Toys R US) and after a long look at the colours I decided on bright orange (Josh's favourite colour).
The man and woman who did our pedicures were Vietnamese and very nice. After the massages, the colour, the design, the jewels, I went to pay for it and they decided not to charge me for everything. They kept referring to me as 'hoshita' since they thought Chantel and I looked like sisters.
That evening, Chantel showed me her new apartment where, she, her mom and step-dad have just moved into. We said 'good bye' with the reassurance to keep in touch over the internet. I am really going to miss her and hope to see her again.

Inside the Scott Manor BBQ

2008-05-20T20:14:00.001-04:00

The residents at Scott Manor sing 'Happy Birthday' to me and Jessica.

My Birthday at Scott Manor

2008-05-20T09:17:00.007-04:00

Yesterday, my twin sister Jessica and I turned 21. To celebrate our birthday, my dad drove to St.Catharines and helped us put on a BBQ at Scott Manor. Heymans borrowed a big beastly BBQ from his work and he also ordered a beautiful and delicious chocolate cake from 'Subs-plus'. Heymans went to Ottawa for the long-weekend so we missed his presence at the BBQ but his contribution to it was so generous, just as he always is.
Colin and my dad went to work flipping burgers as Jessica and I prepared paper plates with buns and pasta salad. The residents gathered in the dining room, all excited to eat a type of food which they consider a luxury. Josh with camera in hand, helped load up the plate and pass them out to the hungry 'Manorites'.
As Jessica and I entered the dining room, they serenaded us with 'Happy Birthday' and it was so sweet. It is hard to believe that my and Josh's time there is coming to a fast end. We are going to visit the manor once more on Wednesday before we leave to Toronto.
The remainder of the evening was spent visiting with my dad, and selling our bunk beds to a young father who came over and picked up the set that night. Heymans arrived to St.Catharines from his busy weekend, and He, Josh and I went to Montana's for some 'birthday dinner'. It was a great birthday.

Is That Prophetic?

2008-05-18T12:29:00.002-04:00

It was my last Saturday with the kids at Hamilton Celebration Church. I hadn't seen them in a couple of months due to surgery, but Josh and I were eager to see them once again before we depart St.Catharines in three days.

My text was Titus 1:16, in which I taught the kids about the danger of hypocrisy, especially when it comes to loving Jesus. We spent most of the class, doing 'prophetic painting', expressing words from God in art form. The kids had fun and it was another chance for me to tell the importance of helping the poor and the needy, because Jesus Himself is in the down-trodden.

This morning we meet to NCC for the last time, and soon we will be going to Scott Manor, for our last Sunday there as well. It is sad to leave Scott Manor and I am still praying that there will be people who will want to continue the pastoral care there, once we all go off in different directions.
Tomorrow, my dad is coming to St.Catharines and helping us to put on a barbecue at the manor. On Tuesday, Chantel and I are going to have dinner together and get pedicures done.

Prophetic art with the Hamilton kids.

We Leave in a Week

2008-05-14T21:19:00.005-04:00

I am feeling so much better now that I am able to walk around and do some activities. Josh and I had lunch with Pastor George and Marilyn Woodward and then spent time with them at their house. I am very grateful for them, one of the reasons being that they will sit and listen to all of our plans and answer any questions we have. They definitely have a lot of experience in ministry and they have seen many things. Pastor George's influence in my life has been so great. While, I don't really have a home church, I do consider him to be my pastor.
Heymans was so sweet and bought Josh and I, shoes as a 'going-away' present. I am very touched by his willingness to give and give, when he has every reason to be saving his money. But was is being rich? Is it holding onto our money and possessions or is freely giving? I think Heymans is truly rich.
In my life, I have been very blessed by the people around me. May I also be what a Christian should be.

The Sluggard Arises from Her Bed

2008-05-12T14:49:00.004-04:00

Finally after days of endless book reading, watching movies, and just plain 'laying around', I walked outside for the first time in 3 weeks. Heymans, being his generous self, let me and Josh borrow his car, allowing my 'walk outside' to just be the beginning. Josh and I went to Niagara Falls where the surgeon removed almost all my stitches, but told me that I'm not all healed up yet. The sympathetic nurse assured me that a week of bathing in epsom salt would do the trick.
After arranging another appointment with the surgeon, I did something stupid. Yes, one of those moments you regret:if I only knew then what I know now-moments. The surgeon offered me some more strong pain killers and I said no. I just simply thought that my pain was becoming minimal and to take more of these pain killers, might seem too extreme.
One hour later...
A stop at the Penn Center left me feeling spent, but no one needs to tell me that I should have taken the pain killers. I definitely realize that now. But, I can't dwell on it and I think before I know it, the 'cyst chronicles' will be behind me, and I will be left with strengthened character, thankfulness and a curiousity of the fruit produced from this time; that perhaps I will discover further down the road.
I feel so indebted and grateful to the people who have cared for me and helped me through this hard time. I can be very stubborn and I enjoy being independent and productive. To not be able to put my own socks on has been a challenge in humility, that I am thankful for.
Hopefully, this week I will be able to meet with Chantel and a short list of people who I would like to see at least once more, before Josh and I leave St.Catharines.
But for now, I savour a tall glass of chocolate milk and decide to enjoy simple things.

I've got Cabin Fever

2008-05-08T16:49:00.004-04:00

As I type, Josh has run out to get me some Swiss Mocha ice cream. It is chocolate ripple meets mocha in a swirl of dairy goodness. I really need to get out of the house!!! For the past 3 weeks I have been watching movies, reading books...and eating ice cream. Though I should say that my intake of vitamins, fruits and vegetables does outweigh the bowls of chocolate ripple..which apparenly isn't that bad for you. Anyway...!
I had a dream last night in which I was discussing my future plans with Pastor George Woodward, the former dean of the Bible school. This dream wasn't a far cry from reality since every meeting I've had with Pastor George always seems to have an underlying purpose of him finding out what my goals are and how I'm going to do what I plan to do. So in this dream, I told Pastor George that Amsterdam may not happen and, we may just pursue a plan for long-term missions in the fall. He said this sounded like a smart idea. We'll see what Pastor George advises in reality when Josh and I meet with him, and his wife Marilyn next week.

The Songs we Sing in Church vs. The Lives we Live

2008-05-07T19:22:00.006-04:00

With just a quick glance around this world, it does not take long for some to wonder how a loving God can allow suffering.
While this question is relevant, and many have gone to great lengths to defend the character of God, it is difficult to find an answer that we are all completely satisfied with, while children and innocent people die daily.
Adam and Eve gave permission for sin to run rampant on this Earth, and so that results in evils of all sort. God gave us a choice to love, meaning we also have the choice to hate. Historians, investigators reporters,journalists, etc. can only attempt to record the misfortunes of the many who suffer at the merciless hands of hate and indifference.
While these answers give us some relief, making us feel better about the loving character of a fair God, it does not give me relief about the character of Christians.
How can us Christians allow suffering? We are God's people representing Him, or to the eyes of any Bible-reader, misrepresenting Him.
Jesus had an extreme love for the lowly, outcasts of society. Many are proudly annointed by priests and ministers. Jesus felt honoured to be annointed by the town's most prominent prostitute.
As Mother Teresa would embrace 'Jesus in the form of a leper on her doorstep', why don't we allow ourselves to be inconvenienced and criticized over our love for the poor and needy?
We don't need to attend church every Sunday and drive out to every conference, to know that we have the fullness of God living inside of us, power to heal the sick and raise the dead, a mandate to preach the gospel to the ends of the Earth, a possession of the God of all comforts, and hearts bursting with a radical love which alone is a sign and wonder to this world.
And so the question remains. . . why do us Christians allow suffering?
I find myself having more questions for Christians, than for Atheists.

Fleeing from Familiarity, to the 10/40

2008-05-07T00:00:00.001-04:00

Even as I lay here, time continues to fly by, and before I know it, Josh and I will be leaving St.Catharines. We do not have concrete plans for the fall, since the missionary school in Amsterdam was canceled. The 10/40 window continues to invade our minds, though I can't even imagine what kind of oppression exists in those lands. Not only is it an area in the world with high poverty and low quality of life, but its governments are severely opposed to Christianity.
95% of people, which is more than 3.2 billion people, in the 10/40 window do not know the gospel, as it is the most unevangelized section of the world.
So these are the things on my mind lately. I have already discovered that I am not satisfied settled down in the first world, working a job and going to the local church. I have tried it and exhausted it. There is too much suffering in lands I've never heard of, to be content staying in this place that is so familiar.
Please keep us in your prayers as we seek direction.

I keep Myself Busy

2008-05-06T19:13:00.007-04:00

I am relieved that as the days go by, so does my recovery progress. Since my stitches are in an awkward place, I am trying my best not to upset the healing process. For now, I can only lay on my stomach or stand up. It could be worse though, and it definitely is getting better. In the meantime, I keep myself busy.

2008-05-02T08:32:00.004-04:00

I have discovered that recovery from surgery has been the most difficult period of my sickness. It is painful both physically and emotionally. I feel entirely humbled, grateful and indebted to Josh, who has sacrificed much, to be by my bedside, helping me through my healing. But if you were to inquire of him, what he has given up to help me; he would simply shrug it off and say that it has been 'his pleasure'.

That brings me to speak of our precious comforter, Jesus. Jesus was not just a man of words; which sadly, many Christians today are content to be. When we need healing, finances, encouragement, etc, we turn to Jesus. But when Jesus is sick or on the street begging for money; we walk by Him, pretending not to know Him. We want Jesus to help us, but we don't want to help Jesus.

Many people consider the first signs of a 'backsliden Christian' is their absence from church. I think that a 'backslidden Christian' is one, who stops being the Church. The Christian who does not serve Jesus should not be called a 'Christian', for they are wasting their salvation.

When Jesus visited the house of Martha and Mary, He presented a lesson that the Western Church is in dying need of.

Martha ran around making preparations while ignoring the very anointing and glory who sat in her room. She finally approached Jesus to complain about all the work she was trying to get accomplished. This is very much like the First World Church.

Mary, however, did what Jesus called 'The one thing that is important'. She sat at His feet. Both women encountered the same situation: the ' King of Kings and Lord of Lords' making Himself available to them. One woman, chose 'intimacy with the Father' and the fruit of her relationship with Jesus, is still talked about today.

I believe that intimacy with God is our cure for complacency and laziness. A passionate love life with Jesus, will result in a heart that is 'sold out' to Him. Intimacy produces fruitfulness in our lives. We cannot get close to God, without becoming more like Him. The God I know, is not content to express this love in just words, but in action and sacrifice.

And so I pose the question: Who wants to be a Christian?

Come

2008-04-28T23:54:00.003-04:00

To every toiling, heavy-laden sinner, Jesus says, "come to Me and rest." But there are many toiling, heavy-laiden believers too. For them, this same invitation is meant. Note well the words of Jesus, if you are heavy-laden with your service, and do not mistake it. It is not, "Go, labour on,' as perhaps you imagine. On the contrary, it is stop, turn back, "come to Me and rest." Never, never did Christ send a heavy-laden one to work; never, never did He send a hungry one, a weary one, a sick or sorrowing one, away on any service. For such the Bible only says, "come, come, come".
-James Hudson Taylor

Adventure Awaiting

2008-04-27T22:31:00.004-04:00

Despite my having surgery the previous day, Josh and I did attend the 'Celebration Bible College' graduation banquet. Also along for the ride was my dad, who stayed with Colin for the entire weekend. Josh looked so nice and I was so proud to be with him; us matching each other in black. The food was enjoyable (chicken with dill sauce, salad, wild rice and mixed peppers) and we had some fun with Peter and Julie Karanfilis, an amazing couple who can literally make anything fun. In all honesty, I really wanted to go to the banquet to be Josh's date and to show off my tattoo. I was pleased, as I was able to do both though at the end of the night, I paid for it, when I felt very ill.

This morning, my dad and Jessica led, what sounds like a phenomenal service at Scott Manor. Nine of the Scott Manor residents attended the graduation service tonight. Due to my condition, Josh and I stayed home and watched the service online. I was so proud of Jessica as she delivered her 'presidential address' with such passion and gracefulness.

Right now, my main priority is just to rest and reach full recovery. There is too much adventure awaiting, to be bed-ridden any longer than neccessary.

In a month, Josh and I will be flying to 'Prince Edward Island'; the 'land of Anne', where we will have our 'impartation/visitation campaign', encouraging people to fall more in love with Jesus, and to let that love stir them toward action. I myself, want to fall more in love with Jesus and as a result, do anything for Him. I am looking forward to meeting Josh's family and to experience the beauty of the Island. Our visit to the Island is sandwiched between our stay with the Cuthill's in Toronto, helping them with their ministry to the Muslims; and our three month employment at 'Double H Ranch'. There is much adventure awaiting!

Farewell, Cyst!

2008-04-26T09:53:00.005-04:00

On Friday, I had surgery, and I believe that I am now, cyst free! Having surgery was a very interesting experience, from having an IV for the first time, to an Australian surgeon gawking over my tattoo and questioning my holiness.
Overall, it was a very good experience. I was the last patient to have surgery that day, and so just as the nurses promised, I got a lot of attention!
I was asleep for the entire surgery and woke up from what felt a nice nap. It was such a relief to hear the nurse say that the surgery was all over, because just waking up, I wasn't sure at first of what was going on.
I was in a lot of pain and so the nurses gave me pain killers. I fell asleep until 2 kind nurses woke me up, wanting to observe me. As soon as I woke, I started balling my eyes out. They suggested that the medication was making me 'weepy'. I think so!
My dad and Josh took me home, where I reclined on the couch, wrapped in my polyester robe. My throat hurts because during surgery, they put a tube down my throat to help me breathe. Josh was sweet and bought me 'cappucino swirl' yogurt, Halls, mini wheats, and strawberries. My dad stuck around and entertained me for a while, and then went to Colin's place for the night.
The DVD 'Gremlins 2' entertained me for the remainder of the night, until I fell asleep. Jessica was up early this morning, ready to go to work and I sat at the table and raved with her, so I must not be feeling too bad!

Our Final Touches

2008-04-24T18:13:00.007-04:00

With tomorrow comes what I have been waiting 4 months for- surgery! It is going to be such a relief to go from having an ongoing sickness, to being in recovery. The surgery will take place in Niagara Falls at 3:45pm, and since it is just a 'day surgery', I will be home that same evening. It's time to get rid of this cyst, once and for all!
Tomorrow is also Henry's birthday, though he isn't sure how old he's turning, or what year he was born in. Henry is a resident at Scott Manor, the group home, where we put on church and give pastoral care. It is difficult to carry a conversation with Henry because he rants and just goes from topic to topic. I can hardly make sense of what he is talking about because he is so all over the place.
Yesterday, Josh, Heymans and I went to the manor to watch 'Sue Thomas', which is an FBI show that some of the residents watch daily. During a one-sided conversation with Henry he complained that there was butterscotch pudding, but he didn't get any, then he went on to talk about tabbies and tattoos, but enough was said. Today, we bought a pack of butter scotch pudding to take to him tomorrow morning. I am not sure what his reaction will be, but we love just for the sake of loving, and not for the response.
Josh and I also met with the Woodwards today. George Woodward was our 'Dean of Students' and pastored at Niagara Celebration Church with his wife Marilyn. The Woodwards continue to be great mentors and sources of wisdom to us. They have a ministry 'Israel's Peace Ministry', which aids the persecuted Messianic leaders in Israel(some church congregations have to meet in the forest, and others have to camp overnight in guard of their church buildings). The Woodwards have been very kind and extremely encouraging to me. During my last dinner with them, Pastor George tried to talk me out of being a missionary, just to see if I could be talked out of it. His reasoning was that if I backed down, then I am not really called. Yes, that is the kind of people they are, and I appreciate them so much.
I am inviting the residents of Scott Manor to attend the graduation service this Sunday. They are going to feel very honoured, listening to Jessica give her 'president's address, and seeing Colin receive his diploma. I've arranged for the bus to pick them up. They are our final touches of this special event.

Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired. Intense love does not measure, it just gives.
-Mother Teresa

Return of the Robe

2008-04-22T21:18:00.010-04:00

After writing the other night's blog entry, I retired to the couch to read one of my 'I-have-to-hurry-and-finish-this-in-a-week' library books, and Josh entered the apartment. He had gone out to run an errand with Heymans, and now 3 hours later, he approached me with a mysterious grin.
He set down before me a fat 'La Senza' bag, and in it was that yellow 'South Pacific Robe'!
"No, you went and got it!" I exclaimed. I had mixed feelings of wanting to throw it on, and also of wanting him to take it back to the store. After much resistance, including not wanting to even look at the robe, I finally gave ear to reason.
"Me and Heymans talked about it and decided it would be like an insult to God, not to buy it," Josh explained. Although, this statement may sound like an overstatement, he had a point.
A few nights ago, I happened to mention to Josh that I have always wanted a house coat. The next morning, Teresa sent an email asking if she could buy me one. I do think, that isn't just a coincidence, but that God does impress favors on people's hearts.
So last night, I fell asleep on the couch wrapped in the softest thing I have ever felt. That house coat is a blow to my pride and some of my doctrine about frivolous luxuries- but then again it is the softest thing I have ever felt! At the end of the day, no matter what I think, God is God and He will do whatever He wants.

The Adventures of Being a Woman

2008-04-21T19:06:00.009-04:00

Today, I led Josh around the Pen Center mall for probably 2 hours, hitting the most feminine stores, there is. I was searching for a house coat.

Josh's mom Teresa, sent us word saying that she would really like to buy me one, since she knows that after my surgery on Friday, I will just be lounging around. I was very surprised and touched by her thoughtfulness and generosity.
I finally picked out a yellow, softer-than-a-kitten robe, tried it on infront of the mirror (And most of you women could probably relate, this is where the trouble begins), and couldn't stop thinking of how I probably wouldn't wear it very much.

As I stared at my reflection, a girl swimming in a daisy-coloured 'South Pacific Dream robe', I realized just how little I would actually wear it, with my apartment being so hot, and how in 2 months, it would end up sitting in a closet unworn and uncuddled while I travel. Alas, I put it back on the hanger and decided the money could be put to better use.
The 'non-shopping came' to an end, Josh and I jumped on a bus home, and I slept on his shoulder the whole way. Josh is a very patient man.

A woman can say more in a sigh than a man can say in a sermon. ~Arnold Haultain

Greetings from the Garden City

2008-04-21T00:43:00.009-04:00

Dear family and friends,
I hope that as you read this, all is going well and that you are experiencing for yourself a closeness and exciting relationship with Jesus Christ. I find that as I feel His love, it is only natural to give it out. I wanted to share with you, two highlights of my week in which I was able to serve His love to some precious people.
On Thursday, Chantel and I made a homemade pizza that stuck horribly to the pan. Apparantly, the dough needed more than parchment paper to keep itself from becoming glued to the baking sheet. Maybe I should have used corn meal or vegetable oil-something! It still tasted really good though, and seeing Chantel eat the whole wheat crust brought a smile of accomplishment to my face. Between ripping slices of pizza off of the pan, we watched Hilary Duff's 'The Perfect Man', browsed photo albums on Facebook and snapped pictures on the balcony. Josh and Colin arrived at the apartment and Chantel was thrilled to have Colin walk her home.
This afternoon, I was priveleged to be involved in ministry once more, as me and the rest of the crew held a church service at Scott Manor. Josh Duffy, Josh Heymans, Jessica, Colin and I sang with the residents, prayed with them, spoke of their weeks, and taught them. The residents don't just consider us as their pastors but as their friends and to me they are not just mere sheep, but beautiful people. They are worth our time and energy. Jesus considered them to be very valuable when He shed His own blood for them, badly wanting a relationship with each resident.
Please pray for Chantel that her life will glorify God as a result of an intimacy between her and Jesus. Please keep Scott Manor in your prayers, that the residents will continue to surrender their hurts and habit to Jesus; and that their will be dedicated Christians who will continue pastoral care once we leave this summer. Thank you, viewers, for your prayers and support.

Love,

Jenny

'Charity' Written on Our Necks

2008-04-18T21:49:00.006-04:00

Josh and I like the meaning the word 'charity' so much that we decided to have it written on our necks permanently.

Charity:generous actions or donations to aid the poor,benevolent feeling, esp. toward those in need or in disfavor,leniency in judging others

On this hot spring day, Josh and I jumped on a bus to Sonic Tattoo where the tattoo artist Pete, gasped at our request, imploring whether we for sure wanted this tattoo.
"How are you going to get a job?" He exclaimed.
"We're missionaries." I said.

Missionary:One who is sent on a mission, especially one sent to do religious or charitable work in a territory or foreign country. One who attempts to persuade or convert others to a particular program, doctrine, or set of principles; a propagandist.

Once Pete learned that Josh already has 3 tattoos he became a lot more comfortable with us, and began making stencils of our tattoo. So we could view what 'charity' would look like, we placed the stencil on our necks until the angle and placement was to our liking.

Josh and I went into seperate booths where the buzzing of the needle and the pain lasted about 3 minutes, and then we were bandaged up. Pete was pleasantly surprised by my tolerancy for pain. I chose to wear a skirt and looked in his words very 'girlish' and through out the whole process he referred to me as 'girly-girl'. Josh and I will have to return to Sonic Tattoo in 2 days so Pete can check on the healing.

We are now both branded 'charity'.
I desire to continue living a life that lives up to my tattoo.

Living Sermons

2008-04-16T09:53:00.007-04:00

Are we beginning to commend ourselves again? Or do we need, as some, letters of commendation to you or from you?
You are our letter, written in our hearts, known and read by all men; being manifested that you are a letter of Christ, cared for by us, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts.
2 Corinthians 3:1-3

We refer to the Bible as the word of God, though the apostle Paul referred to the Corinthians as the word of God. They were letters of Christ written with the Spirit of the living God.
As Christians today we read the Bible to produce holiness, and I think we have it backwards. In the early church, their holiness produced the Bible. Their lives became a sermon. I think God's desire for us is that our lives will be a sermon. There will almost be no need to preach because people can just view our lives and it is evidence that God is real and that He loves them.
Sometimes I wonder how much Bible study we actually need. I love the Bible and believe that is totally inspired of God and I take nothing away from it. I question the profitability of Christians gathering together to dissect scriptures and discuss what they think Jesus meant, when there are the poor to be fed and clothed, and people who need our help.
It is has become totally acceptable for our image of Christianity to be displayed in mere words than in action.
God is love and we are supposed to distinguished from anyone else, by our self-lessness, giving, love. Love as just words is not love. Love is patient, Love is kind, Love is actions and without actions, it is not love.

a Lasagna and Muffin

2008-04-15T21:48:00.010-04:00

The newlywed couple Cheralyn and Kevin who are first year Bible school students, invited Josh and I over for dinner. Cheralyn made delicious lasagna which is my favourite food. Cheralyn and Josh attend the same church Faith Works Center in PEI and were both on the worship team together. We had a great visit with them as we spoke of our plans to visit PEI.

Josh and I will be flying to the island on May 26 and will have about 10 days, of what we call our'visitation/impartation campaign' as we visit family and the church, with the motive to stir up a hunger and passion for knowing God.

Time is going by so fast. Already, next Friday is my surgery and then Saturday is the Bible college's graduation banquet. Josh and I are purchasing the tickets tomorrow and are believing God to be able to go together despite my recovery.

Tonight is a warm night which will consist of me eating a Tim Hortons' whole wheat raspberry muffin and settling on the couch with a book about understanding suicide. Resting is crucial if I want to be able to visit with Chantel and go to Scott Manor tomorrow.

Me and Josh Heymans

2008-04-14T19:21:00.006-04:00

There are only 2 things that Josh Heymans and I will ever have in common: we love Jesus, and we love Duffy. That is enough.

Home, Sweet Heymans

2008-04-14T18:20:00.018-04:00

I spent four days in a country home, in Winchester, a little neighboring town of Ottawa. Josh and I were company to Josh Heymans as we travelled to his hometown to visit his family and church. We toured around Ottawa city (which was an hour drive from Winchester) where I saw the 'eternal flame', a big spider statue and Heyman's swing on a lamp post from a frightening height.
We also went to a Aunt Carol's Bible Study and a 'youth drop-in centre' which our friend Melody pioneered.
We had a lot of family time at Heyman's dad and step-mom's house where he also has a seven year old sister and six year old brother. We feasted on spaghetti, salad, caramilk cake, and strawberry-rhubarb pie, followed by a good wholesome game of 'go fish' (I won).

I wasn't feeling well for some of our stay although, the bed in the guest room was so big and comfy, it almost made being sick enjoyable.
I enjoyed the country experience and hoped to walk away with a better understanding of Josh Heymans. Well, I didn't but it was a good time anway.

The Final Analysis

2008-04-09T08:08:00.004-04:00

People are often unreasonable, illogical

and self-centered;

forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;

be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;

Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;

Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;

Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;

Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;

Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have,

and it may never be enough;

Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis,

it is between you and God,

It was never between you and them anyway.

-Mother Teresa

Lower

2008-04-09T07:40:00.006-04:00

The dying, the cripple, the mental, the unwanted, the unloved, they are Jesus in disguise.

-Mother Teresa

Let us be quick to serve and wash the feet of the world. Let's abandon a worldly attitude of glamour that invites us to exhalt ourselves above others. Let us join Jesus and put ourselves below others. Love can be translated as the word 'charity' which means a special lenience toward others;especially the poor. We should be very grateful to serve the poor because as we do so, we serve Jesus Himself.

We find Jesus where we would prefer to think He wouldn't be: in the slums, in the dumpster, laying on the sidewalk surrounded by garbage. Jesus, being so in love with us, left Heaven and was brought to the lowest point. He washed the feet of His disciples, was sabotaged although He was innocent and was killed so that our sins wouldn't be held against us. Jesus was pleased to go very low and He still is today. He is pleased to live in the unlovely and as we care for and serve, He reveals Himself as pure joy and love.

'Truly I say to you, to the extent that you did it to one of these brothers of Mine, even the least of them, you did it to Me'. Matthew 25:40

Opportunity

2008-04-08T19:22:00.008-04:00

Every Monday Elly, who is a Bible school student, takes any students who will agree to go, to Versa-Care where she leads an hour long service, affectionately called a 'Hymn-sing'. Residents gather in the large sitting room where Elly leads them in singing hymns and then she shares a message with them, exhorting them and comforting them by the love of Jesus.
Josh and I called Elly the night before, asking if we could join her and she invited one of us to preach. I was very happy to be able to share with the residents, a message about God's deep love. Josh prayed for them and the students: Cheralyn, Kevin, Nita and Gina all shared in the opportunity, talking with the residents and helping them to find the songs in the books. Josh and I plan to continue going every week until we leave St.Catharines.
Part 1

Part 2

Sweet Chantel

2008-04-08T19:10:00.005-04:00

Today, my 'little sister' Chantel came over and we made tacos and watched a movie. Actually we basically did anything but watch the movie, which just became background noise for us as Chantel rolled around in my wheel chair and we straightened each other's hair between snapping pictures. I find myself always overplanning for my weekly visit with Chantel, thinking that I need to entertain her constantly. I find that our friendship has flourished into a kind where it is not about the activity, but we just enjoy one another's company.

Chantel lives in the neighborhood 'Old Pine Trail' which is behind my apartment building. We met in September when I was involved in a kid's outreach program. There was an instant friendship between the two of us, and before long, we were meeting weekly to spend time together.

I am going to miss her so much when I leave at the end of May. Sometimes I consider the dilemma of beginning a program or a friendship and then leaving. I wonder for a moment, if it would have been better for Chantel if we had never began hanging out because now she is so sad over my departure. I give my head a shake though, and I am so grateful for the opportunity I have had to love her. For the upcoming weeks I just want to enjoy her as much as possible before I leave. We already have plans of hairstyling, pizza making and pedicures.

Much More Than a Window Cleaner: Happy Birthday, Dad

2008-04-06T00:00:00.025-04:00

My sister Jessica and I don't need to think twice when asked who has influenced us and inspired us the most, shaping who we are today. Our dad, John Brown is 48 years old today and still continues to encourage us as we venture into adulthood.

Our dad was born in Ottawa, the youngest of five children. Despite a childhood where money was very tight, alcoholism was normal and, having survived a near fatal car crash in which he had to relearn everything from speaking to walking, my dad became an entrepreneur as a young teenager and pursued a life that many could only imagine. My dad has always been very self-motivated, willing to do anything it takes. He reflects that kind of attitude today, as he owns and operates a successful window cleaning business 'Crystal Clear Window Cleaners'.

Although our dad sets out each morning in his van with the ladders on the roof, visiting homes, stores and dealerships with squeegee in hand, his customers would have to agree that he is much more than a window cleaner. He can often be spotted entertaining children by drawing smiley faces in soapy windows with his squeegee, and he seems to make friends wherever he goes.

To the lonely, frustrated and friendless my dad has been the smile and kind word prayed for. He is extremely generous, giving of his time, energy and finances without looking for something in return. He makes himself so available and will sit down and talk with anyone.

Growing up, my dad exposed us to drama and public speaking which plays a very important role in our lives today as we continue to speak publically and preach. We met some interesting challenges as our dad became a single parent, but it was during this trial that his good character flourished. He threw himself into being the best father a girl could ask for. He would take us shopping and then watch us try on outfits, giving his opinion and never complaining about multiple trips back to the same store. Before bed, we reclined in the living room, eating ice cream and watching 'Pepperann' together. We always went to him for advice about boyfriends and friends. Even our friends would throw their arms around him and call him 'dad'. He became much more than a dad, but a bestfriend.

We are very proud of our dad. He makes the most of every opportunity and sees every person he encounters as being so valuable. He is a servant and even leads at his church Lake Shore St.Andrews where he hosts a small group helping men cope with grief and other serious problems. It's hard to imagine all of the people, who our dad has helped and inspired. We are so blessed to be his daughters and look forward to plenty more years of learning from him.

It's True

2008-04-05T21:21:00.003-04:00

It's true. Sometimes I don't feel so good-but it's all good.

Down But Not Out

2008-04-05T13:44:00.022-04:00

So what's been happening with me is I have a cyst on my tailbone. How would something like that happen, you may ask. Well, in October I was cleaning a bus and in order to do this I was sweeping down the aisle. As I walked backwards with my broom, sweeping as I went, I forgot that I left the big back doors of the bus open. You probably can guess what happened next. I fell backwards off of that bus and the result was a broken broom (what was also unfortunate about this was the broom was labelled 'do not remove from kid's room'!) and an injured tailbone. I thought I was fine and despite pain in my lower back I resumed my every day life.
In January, the pain became severe and that's when I discovered that a cyst had developed on my tailbone, as a result of my bad fall. I got it drained and spent 3 weeks in recovery. I returned to work and ministry and then it came back. I continued working at Tim Hortons, doing Hamilton Kid's Church and visiting children in their neighborhoods for as long as I could. The pain, though unpredictable was becoming too intense and I was becoming too tired. I had to finally accept that I needed to take time off before things got worse.
My days are sunny and sweet as I reside on the couch in my living room. My sister Jessica and my room mate Sheri are used to me lying there. Beside my 'new bed' is a wheel chair which Josh borrowed from Scott St. Manor. I use the wheel chair when walking isn't easy.
Although the cyst is painful and the infection it has caused makes me ill, the most difficult part of this episode is the part where I reside on the couch all day. I am very much a 'go-person' and if you are the kind of person who likes to keep busy, seeing how many activities she can possibly fit into one week, then you understand my dilemma. It is very hard for me to do nothing. It is also a challenge to let other people do things for me. It is a time in which humility shall flourish.
In my nothingness I am determined to make the most of my time. I am reading as much as possible, broadening my knowledge so that when I do get back out in the world, I am even more well equipped. My times with God are precious as my days are filled with rest. Years down the road, I will see the fruit of my days spent on the couch.
I am going to have surgery on April 25 and get rid of this thing for good, but evident in my life is God's healing hand. At the end of the day, all I can do is depend on Him.

Prison Angel: A Humble Service

2008-04-03T13:03:00.011-04:00

Imagine leaving a glamourous life in Beverly Hills, Hollywood to live among inmates in a Mexican jail, doing everything you can to pull in supplies to meet their daily needs, offering your companionship and affection, and devoting your life to being one of them?

Perhaps you have visited a jail, a group home or a run-down hospital, and you leave the place very relieved that it isn't your home, but what if you voluntarily moved in, just to be a constant presence of love to the residents there.
Mother Antonia,a beautiful blonde did trade the comforts of her suburban home for a small, cold cell in La Mesa, a prison in Tijauana, Mexico where the living conditions were extremely inhumane.

She had divorced twice, raised seven children and successfully ran her own business but her happiness came from the charity work that she threw herself in. She was banned by the church from joining and religious order because she had been divorced and was 45 years old. As a lover of Jesus, Mother Antonia took charity into her own hands and actually constructed herself a nun outfit (she wanted to wear a 'habit' to represent her faith and so that she would be easily accepted amongst the poor) and decided to be a missionary and do her own work, regardless of church rules.

She sold everything she had including her business, house and lavish wardrobe to move into La Mesa. In the prison, she lives in the same conditions as the prisoners. For the first few years her cell was located over a raw sewer drain and she slept with a surgical mask because the stench was so strong. Her days begin early and end late as she devotes herself to companionship with the inmates and venturing into town to rally to gather donations from a network she established including owners of stores and restaurants, San Diego's dump, hospitals and priests. She kisses the prisoners, holds their hands and also helps to clothe and feed them. She administers medicine and councels the prisoners as well as the prison guards and their wives and children. She even pays for dentists to fix the smiles of the beloved convicts. She has aided the release of convicts who were convicted on nonviolent crimes and assisted them in finding an apartment and job; establishing a new life for themselves. During riots she would step into literal warzones negotiating deals between riot squads and police. At times, prisoners who died,were left unclaimed by family in the prison morgue. After nine days, Mother Antonia would take the body in a coffin, flag down a passing truck, and ask to be driven to the cemetery in Tijuana. There she would pay a few dollars for a simple grave site and cry for them, writing on a wooden cross “We Love You.” She would pull aside a grave digger or any nearby citizen to kneel down and pray with her. She would conduct monthly masses for the unknown dead in Tijauana.

She is a woman of independence, boldness and above all a woman of love whose only happiness is in serving others; especially the forgotten poor. When she dies she hopes to be buried amongst the poor because she feels in her heart that she is one of them, and she is so thankful for the opportunity they have given her to serve God.

“I’d been an outsider to suffering all my life. I had been on the outside helping people on the inside, whether it was in Africa or Bolivia or anywhere else.I think there comes a time when it’s not enough for us just to help other people. There’s something inside us that yearns to give ourselves up for the sake of other people. Sacrifice is the language of love. Without sacrifice, there is no love.” Mother Antonia

Spirit of Excellence: Relieving Poverty in Windsor

2008-03-31T18:29:00.008-04:00

Today,Josh and I had the sweet privilege of visiting 'Spirit of Excellence' a ministry founded by Colleen Kosti. I am absolutely in awe of the heart of this woman. She has pioneered this great project, dedicated to relieving families of poverty. I didn't realize that their are many children in Windsor who live in third world conditions and don't even receive baths weekly. They are neglected by their parents and grow up in an environment where drugs, alcoholism prostitution is an everyday norm. As Christians this reality should stir us to take action and care for the needy.
I was so glad to talk with Colleen and just hear all of the projects that come out of her ministry. She teaches life skills to underprivileged children, offers a literacy program, computer classes and fitness programs. I am just mentioning a few of the projects. She also reaches out to the prostitutes via her finishing school, appropriately titled 'Queen Esther's Finishing School'.
I have so much respect for this ministry which is truly a work of God. Anyone who can take part in this beautiful organization would be truly blessed and I hope to have the opportunity as well, to be a part of something so great.

Weekend Trip

2008-03-30T21:21:00.010-04:00

This weekend Josh and I hit my hometown Windsor, to visit with my dad for the weekend. We have had such a sweet time visiting friends at Lakeshore St.Andrews, and getting a great look at the community that my dad has taken a leadership role in.
Josh and I have made plans to visit PEI May 26 until we go to Upstate New York for Double H Ranch, where we will minister in a secular environment for 2 months. In mid October we anticipate outreach in the 'red light district' of Amsterdam.
During my visit home, I have been able to share these plans with friends and the support has been wonderful. I am constantly in awe over the simplicity of taking opportunities and as doors open suddenly we have plans and we can go anywhere and do anything for Jesus, if only we are willing.
I look forward to perhaps taking a train home to St.Catharines this following week, where we will continue visiting our precious flock at Scott Manor. Next month I will have surgery to remove a cyst on my tailbone and hope to be able to attend the CBC graduation service to see Jessica and my friends graduate.
But for tonight I will enjoy sleeping in my dad's spare room, with his cats Patches and Dusty who are gluttons for affection. There is just something very nice about being home. Thanks, Dad!

'Small Animals' Pastor?

2008-03-22T10:16:00.007-04:00

New York here we come! I am very excited about the opportunity this summer to work at Double H Ranch, a camp for terminally and chronically ill children. Josh has been hired as a cabin councellor and I will be a program leader, helping manage a barn of small animals. So come late May, we will be kissing St.Catharines good bye and running off to camp! May we be His love manifested as we meet Jesus at camp this summer.

"The best thing about the camp is it feels like I’m walking."
-A wheelchair bound Camper

Oh the Plans, we Make

2008-03-15T22:41:00.013-04:00

I'm learning as life goes on, how fast plans could change. It's good to be open but anyway, right now I continue to work full-time at Tim Hortons. I'm enjoying visiting with kids and their families, in the low-income neighborhoods of St.Catharines. Every Tuesday I meet with an 11 year old girl named Chantel who I consider to be a little sister of mine. We sometimes go and eat at a diner, we bake and just do anything that involves spending time together. Please pray that this precious girl will take hold of everything God has for her, moving forward in life with great confidence in Him.
Every Sunday a group of us go to Scott Manor (a home for the mentally-unstable) where we have church. We are planning a game night, girl's night and Easter service. The residents at Scott Manor are amongst the most peculiar and zany people that I have ever met. They have become our flock, our church, our family. As the year continues and we make plans of departing St.Catharines, we are praying for some faithful people to continue visiting and having church there. I don't understand why anyone would not want to do it.
I am applying to become a licenced minister and I am continuing to make plans for the rest of year which may include working at a kid's camp for the summer.
Everything is good and every moment is a moment in which we could fall more in love with Jesus. As we make our plans, we know they could fall through at any moment but if we're just open to opportunities and willing to do anything for Jesus, suddenly our life is an adventure.

The True Fast

2008-03-07T16:43:00.008-05:00

So lately I've been in Isaiah 58, watching and listening as the Israelites cry out to God, demanding favour from Him. In verse 3 they ask God "why have we fasted and You do not see?" It is a shame to read the Bible and then not parallel it with our own lives. I think about this nation which devoutly worshipped idols but were trying to please God by putting on their sack cloths and spreading ashes.
Traditionally, they were doing all the 'right things'. They appeared to be a people who desired to be close to God and they looked spiritual. Their impure motives are further revealed as they ask "Why have we humbled ourselves and You do not notice?" Humility does not look to be noticed. Again, we must take these scriptures and use them as a glass inwhich we peer into our own lives.
I don't want to get caught up in appearing spiritual. I don't want to lift my hands during worship or kneel down just to notify the people around me that I'm enjoying God and that I'm 'still spiritual'. I don't want to care for the sick while looking over my shoulder to see who is noticing my 'self-sacrificing love'. Self-sacrificing love totally throws self aside. Self-sacrificing love gives and gives without seeking glory.
When we're caught up in looking spiritual we miss out on true spirituality. There are some things that Jesus wants us to do that don't look spiritual at all.
The Israelites prided themselves in all of their fasting, since they looked very humble and holy. God continues to make the western church shift uncomfortably in their seats as He says in verse 5 "Is this not the fast which I choose?" He then speaks of bringing the homeless poor into our houses, giving ourselves over to the needy and doing everything possible to relieve the afflicted.
He speaks of a beautiful partnership with us as He goes into every alley and every hospital with us, constantly satisfying and delighting us. He truly speaks of a gift.
Unfortunately this fast may be a gift that the church has given back to God. But there is hope, for God is always pursuing our hearts, that we may draw close to Him and fall so in love that we will do anything for Him, which will result in the caring of the most sad, sickly people.
God didn't want the 'spiritual show' that the Israelites put on and He doesn't want ours either. He wants our hearts to be completely His because He is badly in love with us. He wants us to desire nothing in this world besides Him. Is His love enough to win your heart? Is the love story of the cross so gripping that you will throw self aside to live for God, knowing that no other life is worth living. If you never get anything you want but what you do have is the Presence of God, wouldn't the things you once wanted seems so insignificant in comparison?
Let's not merely be a people of lifted hands, closing eyes and kneeling just for the sake of looking so 'God focused' and passionate. God talks of a 'true fast' and describes what the church today may consider to be very 'unspiritual'. Let's have a 'true lifting of hands', a 'true kneeling' as we hold the frail hand of the sick, visit and care for the forgotten, and give ourselves over to the needy of this world.
"And the Lord will continually guide you, And satisfy your desire in scorched places, And give strength to your bones; And you will be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water whose waters do not fail'.Isaiah 58:11

The Night I held Jesus

2008-02-24T21:26:00.002-05:00

Compassion. I met a little girl whose bald head was covered by a ski cap and a long tube ran up her back and into her nose. She was extremely pale as she approached me and asked me to play with her. I was at a conference, and to this moment I don't know why I would receive the honour to play with this divine visitor who called herself Gabby.
We played on the balcony until her foster mother insisted that she take the little girl home. This woman had tired eyes but she radiated with the sweet love of Jesus. She asked that I walk her and Gabby to their van.On the way out of the church, some people laid hands on Gabby, praying earnestly for her healing and the little girl clung to me and cried.As she pressed her small face against me and wrapped her arms around me, tears soaked my shirt. I found myself trembling as I felt these were the tears of Jesus.
Something was happening to me...all education and all training became useless at that moment as I just held her and felt that I was holding Jesus. As this weak child cried on me and I could do nothing but comfort her, I felt that I was encountering Jesus Himself and comforting Him. Something was happening to me... as I wiped her tears and looked into her eyes..there He was.How could this be? My mind couldn't understand it and was quite troubled by it.
Jesus, may I never overlook You again as You lay helpless in a hospital bed. Jesus, may I never walk past You again as You crouch infront of Starbucks begging for change. Jesus, may I never change the channel again as You search in the dumpster for something to eat.
I shivered as Gabby climbed into the van and then she hugged me once more. " I don't want you to go," she sobbed."My darling, I'm sure we'll see eachother again," was all I could say, though I really wished that I could stay with her and learn more and see more.
He is all around us but not where we expect to find Him. Do you see Him? Will you comfort Him and give all of yourself to Him? Compassion.
"Then the righteous will answer Him, saying, Lord, when did we see you hungry, and feed you, or thirsty, and gave you drink? And when did we see You a stranger, and invite You in, or naked, and clothe You? And when did we see you sick, or in prison, and come to You? And the King will answer and say to them, Truly I say to you, to the extent that you did it to one of these brothers of Mine, even the least of them, you did it to Me'. Matt 25:37-40

Ezekiel Night

2008-02-24T17:22:00.005-05:00

At Hamilton Celebration Church I kicked off my teaching on 'the wheel of God' (Ez 1:19-21) with Ezekiel night. For ages, artists have attempted to draw the creatures which God showed Ezekiel in a vision, only to give up. As I read the scriptures aloud the kids picked up crayons and through laughter and cries of frustration, illustrated these creatures. Followed by the prophetic art was a renactment of the 'fireman' (Ez 8:1-3)As I venture through the book of Ezekiel I admire his intimacy with God and obedience to Him. What shall these kids learn about next? The field of dry bones becoming flesh? Tearing through a wall blindfolded? Laying on ones side for 3 years? Or perhaps, the plunge into the River of God. Whatever God wants next, it is bound to not be our typical Sunday School lesson.

Debtors to the World

2008-02-23T13:43:00.005-05:00

It was nearing the end of William Booth's life when Dr. Wilbur Chapman conducted an interview with him. William Booth, the founder of the Salvation Army was said to be 'obsessed with the homeless' and he surely lived a life that demonstrated this passion. He raised up an international ministry devoted to comforting the souls of the 'worst of the worst' sinners. Prostitutes, drug addicts, and alcoholics found the love of God when they met Booth's army.
During this interview, Chapman asked Booth what the secret of his success has been. Booth's reply was, "I made up my mind that God would have all of William Booth there was." When we're introduced to such a wonderful love, should not the cry of our lives be "God, have all me of me." We see the results of such a plea in the life of Booth. Following this kind of desire is a life without any regrets because living solely for Jesus is our only hope of satisfaction.
Another term for commission is 'to entrust'. God has entrusted His gospel to us and woe is us if we do not preach the gospel. How miserable and empty our lives become when we don't follow after love and introduce people to Jesus. We can hesitate because we consider all that we may have to give up, the hard work required and the pain of being inconvenienced. Let's not wait for the end of our lives when we realize that things we foolishly held precious to us, would have made a wonderful sacrifice for Jesus. Let's go out and manifest the world with His glory.
"For the earth will be filled with the knowledge of the glory of the Lord, as the waters cover the sea." Habakkuk 2:14